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Intro
01:18
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2. |
Nobody Knows Me
02:19
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I wonder if anyone feels like me
In a crowded room yet feeling lonely
Feeling I have no one to turn to during these times
Even though I always have you by my side
These thoughts in my head are what don’t want me alive
Sometimes I feel the world is better off if I die
Then my soul will finally be at peace
Feeling I weigh you down with the past that I bring
Refusing change
Finding comfort in this pain
I’m numb and I feel frozen
I’m full of emotion
But nobody knows it, nobody knows me
I feel so lost and I’m torn between these bad dreams
But no one says something because I walk around
So boldly and acting like nothing will tear me down
Refusing to follow all these thoughts that weigh me down
Living in a prison in my mind
And I’m screaming for help
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3. |
Losing Control
01:45
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Holding a drink in your hand
A fist in the other
Fearing which would be the first to hit my mother
Would you throw that bottle against her head?
Or would you beat her senseless? Almost leaving her dead
Praying to a God who refuses to listen
Begging that just for the night, he won't start to lose it
Thinking I am man enough to stand in the way
He pushes me with his arm far away
The punches begin to fly
All I can do is cower and cover my eyes
Feeling the guilt of letting my mother down
By not being man enough and holding my ground
I'm a coward, I'm a punk
Couldn't stand up for my mother when things were rough
But what could you expect from me?
I was simply a kid who believed this was all a bad dream
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4. |
Remembrance
02:34
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I can't begin to explain
This is the world I was birthed in
A fight everyday of our lives
I fight we were fighting to stay alive
This would all start because of his temper
Been going on since I can remember
Everyday was a fear that he would lose control
Always having fear of fucking coming home
These traumas are buried into my head
It's a nightmare every night, I wake up in sweats
I try drowning these memories
But they found a place to live forever in me
We all got something that lives deep down inside
We refuse to talk about it to not bring it back to life
Sometimes I need to air out all these demons
But when I ask for help does anyone hear me?
I'm so fucking lost and I carry all my burdens
I let them bring me down at every single moment
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5. |
The Search
01:49
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Sometimes I feel that I search for forever
Looking for answers that I know are not here
The stuff I saw growing up will always follow me
Seeing all these traumas when I close my eyes to sleep
It's a bad dream that you can't wake up from
Like having sleep paralysis from day one
When I see all these people in my dreams
It still feels like they're out to hurt me
Chasing me down this dark long road
I keep running for miles and can't find my home
Even in my dreams I have nowhere safe to run to
(Nowhere safe to run to)
I look up to the sky
I say a final prayer
(If you can hear me)
Please show me that you're here
(Don't give up on me when I need you the most)
But send those guardians of
(Which my mother spoke)
Showing me that my life
(Wasn't a lie)
And that I really have
Someone watching over me
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6. |
One Fight Away
03:31
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Imagine a life
Where no one would get hurt
Where your parents cared for you
And didn’t put the addiction first
A life that was full of happiness
A life that you could only wish would exist
I’ve had those thoughts in my life
And I can’t be the only one
I speak these words to those who feel alone
You’re not alone in this world
There is always hope
There is that light that you seek for
And just like me you have a purpose to live for
Sometimes it feels like you can’t go on
But I’m here for you to listen when things go wrong
I want to be the voice of the voiceless
And fight this constant battle that goes unnoticed
Then maybe we wouldn’t be buried in memories
Where we ask ourselves this constant question
Where do I begin?
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